September 5: A few hours ago, anxious as heck, I sat in the parking lot at my local gym, waiting. On a whim I signed up for a membership last week with some friends and tonight was my first time visiting said gym. We were taking a 30 minute #HIIT class and while I was excited to try it, I was crippled with fear and anxiety. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. My belly gets in the way of everything. I’m not bendy in any way. Like at all! And, I have hip issues. I hate being watched. My anxiety made me get to the gym 40 minutes early. Scared I’d be late. Scared to show up after the class started. Everyone looking at me. So I sat in the car waiting. Fretting. Beating myself up for letting myself “go” all these years. If I had stayed in shape, I wouldn’t be scared I’d throw up in front of everyone. I fretted until the very last minute before the class started. But knowing I had a friend waiting and counting on me made me move my butt out of that car. Inside the gym, I swipe my pass and I can
CURRENTLY on my mind...
Feeling: A little bit anxious, a little bit like I need to get on the treadmill to get my butt moving, and a little overwhelmed with being cooped up in the house. We are on day 31 of quarantine/self-isolation due to the COVID-19 pandemic.
Cooking: For lunch I'm warming up leftovers from our Easter dinner (chicken cutlets and rice). Tonight it's pasta with homemade sauce.
Drinking: Copious amounts of coffee...and wine...because we're in self-quarantine and let's face it....the only way to survive this with kids is to drink caffeine and wine.
Eating: ALL THE THINGS. Kidding. Still munching on the the kids Easter chocolates and trying to supplement it with healthy Weight Watchers (WW) friendly eats.
Reading: I just bought What Happens Now? by Sophia Money-Coutts. I haven't started it yet technically but I plan to this week!
Wasting: Time! I'm such a procrastinator!!! Also spring mix lettuce. Am I the only one who buys a box and then just let's it sit in the fridge until it's rotten and time to buy a new one? Rinse and repeat.
Wishing: That the COVID-19 pandemic was over so we could get out of quarantine/self-isolation and get back to normal. Not only do I want everyone healthy and thriving but I'm not going to lie...I miss Winners and Home Sense :(
Wearing: PJ's and comfy lounge wear. All day. Every day.
Procrastinating: Working out and cleaning the house. HELP ME!!!
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