September 5: A few hours ago, anxious as heck, I sat in the parking lot at my local gym, waiting. On a whim I signed up for a membership last week with some friends and tonight was my first time visiting said gym. We were taking a 30 minute #HIIT class and while I was excited to try it, I was crippled with fear and anxiety. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. My belly gets in the way of everything. I’m not bendy in any way. Like at all! And, I have hip issues. I hate being watched. My anxiety made me get to the gym 40 minutes early. Scared I’d be late. Scared to show up after the class started. Everyone looking at me. So I sat in the car waiting. Fretting. Beating myself up for letting myself “go” all these years. If I had stayed in shape, I wouldn’t be scared I’d throw up in front of everyone. I fretted until the very last minute before the class started. But knowing I had a friend waiting and counting on me made me move my butt out of that car. Inside the gym, I swipe my pass and I can
So today I’m starting my day with a positive intention: to focus on 5 things that have made me smile this past week.
Here we go….
Talking to an old friend on the phone after months of not being in touch.
Learning that my family and I will be making more memories together this summer (and next) regardless of what happens with the pandemic. We’ve rented a cottage and can’t wait for our little getaway.
Even though the kids are sick of eachother (remote school and the lockdown situation is most likely to blame) they’ve also found comfort in one another since they aren’t able to see or play with their friends. While they do fight and bicker, they also play with each other and motivate each other. And they’ve been helping each other with homework and issues that arise during remote school. It warms my heart when I see them genuinely be kind to one another.
I’ve been on the weight loss and fitness train these past two months and my hubby has been so encouraging. He just told me how proud he is of me for sticking to my goal of working out every day and said I’m totally slaying it. It just made me feel so good to have my hard work acknowledged.
Bedtime has the potential to be disastrous or easy peasy with my kids.There is no in between. And sometimes after a long hard day the last thing I want to do is lay down with the kiddos. The other night was like that. But, my littlest one Adrianna reminded me why bedtime is so precious. It is the one time of day that both kids are their most vulnerable and want to share things with me about their day, their thoughts, the fears, their wants etc. The other night, Adrianna was so over tired she just had straight up giggles. And it was infectious. And exactly what I needed - although I didn’t realize it at the time. We giggled for about 45 minutes about everything, and nothing all at the same time.That truly warmed my heart. She needed that connection with me, and you know what, I really needed it too.
What are 5 things that made you smile this week?
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