September 5: A few hours ago, anxious as heck, I sat in the parking lot at my local gym, waiting. On a whim I signed up for a membership last week with some friends and tonight was my first time visiting said gym. We were taking a 30 minute #HIIT class and while I was excited to try it, I was crippled with fear and anxiety. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. My belly gets in the way of everything. I’m not bendy in any way. Like at all! And, I have hip issues. I hate being watched. My anxiety made me get to the gym 40 minutes early. Scared I’d be late. Scared to show up after the class started. Everyone looking at me. So I sat in the car waiting. Fretting. Beating myself up for letting myself “go” all these years. If I had stayed in shape, I wouldn’t be scared I’d throw up in front of everyone. I fretted until the very last minute before the class started. But knowing I had a friend waiting and counting on me made me move my butt out of that car. Inside the gym, I swipe my pass and I can
Every year over the May long weekend (Victoria Day here in Ontario) we pack up the kids and the trailer and head down to Niagara Falls for our first camping trip of the season. Unfortunately, the current lockdown put a halt on camping plans until mid-June so we had to find something else to keep up the long weekend family adventure tradition. I'm ALWAYS bugging the kids to go on walks and hikes with me, and my requests are usually met with huge sighs coupled with extreme begging and protests to not go! On Friday Scott and I had the day off work, the kids were plugged into remote learning but we snuck them out early. I had no idea this amazing trail was so close to us (less than an hour away). We had so much fun exploring the river trail and then hiking through the forest. We were exhausted by the end but the kids loved it and honestly, it was so nice to just be outside and spending time together. No phones, no video games. It was perfect and we can't wait to go again.