September 5: A few hours ago, anxious as heck, I sat in the parking lot at my local gym, waiting. On a whim I signed up for a membership last week with some friends and tonight was my first time visiting said gym. We were taking a 30 minute #HIIT class and while I was excited to try it, I was crippled with fear and anxiety. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. My belly gets in the way of everything. I’m not bendy in any way. Like at all! And, I have hip issues. I hate being watched. My anxiety made me get to the gym 40 minutes early. Scared I’d be late. Scared to show up after the class started. Everyone looking at me. So I sat in the car waiting. Fretting. Beating myself up for letting myself “go” all these years. If I had stayed in shape, I wouldn’t be scared I’d throw up in front of everyone. I fretted until the very last minute before the class started. But knowing I had a friend waiting and counting on me made me move my butt out of that car. Inside the gym, I swipe my pass and I can
I've always been a member of the "Resolutions are meant to be broken" camp and so I've wrapped them up in pretty new packaging, labelling them as goals, intentions, aspirations, pledge, promise, and my personal fave: purpose. But still, I always broke the new fancy packaging - usually by week 3, and sometimes, before I even started/attempted to start.
Yet every year, on December 31, I find myself pouring over resolution hashtags on Instagram and Twitter, soaking in everyone's lists and imagining a world where I actually accomplished a legit goal.
And this year is no exception. Here's to another year, another resolution!
Like I've declared before (many many many times) this year I will commit to one thing, and one thing only. Getting healthy and in shape - once and for all. I promise to not set up unrealistic expectations about what "getting health and in shape" means. For me, it means losing 20 pounds and keeping it off. It means getting in some activity (30 minutes) every day. Nothing crazy or unattainable. A walk, pilates, a quick HIIT workout - anything that gets me moving and helps me achieve my goal. Healthy foods that don't make me feel sick all the time are key, with treats in moderation, and this one's a biggie: keeping a food journal to see where I can make improvements to my nutrition choices. I don't think this is going to be hard...I just have to make sure I don't get bored, sidetracked, or lazy!
Tomorrow is day 1 of 365...wish me luck!
What's your new year's resolution?
Yet every year, on December 31, I find myself pouring over resolution hashtags on Instagram and Twitter, soaking in everyone's lists and imagining a world where I actually accomplished a legit goal.
And this year is no exception. Here's to another year, another resolution!
Like I've declared before (many many many times) this year I will commit to one thing, and one thing only. Getting healthy and in shape - once and for all. I promise to not set up unrealistic expectations about what "getting health and in shape" means. For me, it means losing 20 pounds and keeping it off. It means getting in some activity (30 minutes) every day. Nothing crazy or unattainable. A walk, pilates, a quick HIIT workout - anything that gets me moving and helps me achieve my goal. Healthy foods that don't make me feel sick all the time are key, with treats in moderation, and this one's a biggie: keeping a food journal to see where I can make improvements to my nutrition choices. I don't think this is going to be hard...I just have to make sure I don't get bored, sidetracked, or lazy!
Tomorrow is day 1 of 365...wish me luck!
What's your new year's resolution?
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