September 5: A few hours ago, anxious as heck, I sat in the parking lot at my local gym, waiting. On a whim I signed up for a membership last week with some friends and tonight was my first time visiting said gym. We were taking a 30 minute #HIIT class and while I was excited to try it, I was crippled with fear and anxiety. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. My belly gets in the way of everything. I’m not bendy in any way. Like at all! And, I have hip issues. I hate being watched. My anxiety made me get to the gym 40 minutes early. Scared I’d be late. Scared to show up after the class started. Everyone looking at me. So I sat in the car waiting. Fretting. Beating myself up for letting myself “go” all these years. If I had stayed in shape, I wouldn’t be scared I’d throw up in front of everyone. I fretted until the very last minute before the class started. But knowing I had a friend waiting and counting on me made me move my butt out of that car. Inside the gym, I swipe my pass and I can
I can't believe we are mid-month already. My plan to read one book a month pretty much died as soon as the COVID-19 pandemic blew up (in March). This month I'm reading another chicklit style book by a new'ish author I had never heard of (Sophia Money-Coutts). I picked up her book What Happens Now? (released in 2019) from Costco a few months ago and have just started it. I won't tell you what I think of it so far, you'll have to wait until the end of the month to find out! In the meantime, check her out for yourself and consider joining me in this month's book club! What I'm Reading This Month: What Happens Now?